LUCKY SIN

Wasted again and again. I did plan to stay in tonight and work on sum school shit. But i swear this booze craving steps up every 48hrs max. When fortune called for a late night session o vodka after my class i found it hard to hesitate on the offer. I did go swimming earlier before class, was a fucking choke session.

Im kinda stoked today cz i got to beat my nigga friend after giving him 40points head start at snooker. After that i ran down to marco's place to wait for the booze. The pigs seem to overdo the roadblocks around bunut area & i've to pass em every fucking time i leave school. Loose the badge & i'll drop u in a fucking sec.

I tried my first phillipino indomee today, it was okay if not for the lime after taste. Yes for my local friends, lime with indomee i'm just as sakai. Fortune showed up late but we did get to drink. Had a whole bunch of snacks to go with the booze and finally had a guitar to layan.

After 3/4 of the bottle consumed to destruct our livers, we had a debate on marco's chick. haha if he doesnt read this blog i'd love to share with u my fellow readers. But as a fucking excellent friend i'll keep it to myself for now till anyone out there gets me fucked enough to spill.

Had to leave by 3+ cz i had to get up early to go to church.
haha, no seriously everyone had shit to do early today including me so wth right. All drink no work makes jack a broke boy. Im done here, till next time fellow minions....ave satanas.

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I saw this pic from a forwarded email and haven't stopped trying figure it out yet.


Spent the whole day working on school stuff. Lets see now what else did i do..oh yea been tuning into a few matches lately. I have no passion for soccer believe me but when money is involved i'm hooked.

The italy match was preety fucked up. I was actually out trying to finish half a bottle with jason & marco while watching the match. Was preety convinced i'd lost it there & the vodka wasnt calming me down but that freaking last few secs penalty brought up a half case onto the table. Yeap all work no booze makes jack a dull boy. Felt bad for the aussies though, they did put up a gud match.

Had a million or so dreams this morning before getting up with a killer appetite. Watched reruns of the ukraine match before going to school. Classes were dull as usual. Had a quick dinner with kong then tried staying awake in the next class. After the director class i went up to the pool house to watch people gamble(for the first time not participating).

Im glad i watched cz i discovered the old timer's that hustled me before were fucking switching cards during gambling. Now i can understand why i got hustled. Wouldn't have believed it if i didnt see it. No wonder nobody wants to gamble with these cheaters. I'm just annoyed how i didnt catch them earlier while i was getting hustled. Well it dont matter now, the best deal is not to gamble them.

Went home and just layan'ed the brazil trashing ghana match. As far betting goes, so far so good. Only an hour to go before spain's match. I guess taking a break from last card & redirecting my gambling options with soccer is better in some ways. Hell the $ is definately more.

I dont know why i got up at 8 this morning but i did. Been turning into a real productive day, with me rushing to get some school work done. Still in doubt bout what to take for tonight's matches. Last night's was the worst fucking england match ive ever seen. Although it ended up draw in terms of betting, it was just terrible football.

I've been listening to dream theater's - "through her eyes" all afternoon cz i finally listened in to the lyrics. It made me think of someone i lost a long time ago, someone very very close to me whom up till this day i've still missed yet almost forgotten. Everytime i look back at this i wished He'd taken me not her.

Whenever i think of it, she would have had a better chance at making it in this godforsaken shithole then me. How can i be thankful for a life full of sins and regrets? A life hidden behind fake smiles, alcohol to forget and waking up daily hoping to meet death. This is whats underneath the skin of my so called life. I've forgotten how much i hated myself, and now im completely aware when i think of her.

Fuck it, ill have to drown my sorrows again. This time i hope i'll see her.

Saturday turned out to be an all day sleep in. Got up without a plan in mind besides looking into the matches to bet later on. After dinner, (no wait what do u call breakfast+lunch+dinner?) drove down to marco's to pick up sum brochures for the project. Fortune was around so i ended up watching the match there. Glad with my bet as germany didn't disappoint me.

After the match we decided to drink. I drove around a bit to get sum chasers & fried chicken. Choice of poison to kill the night? A bottle of vodka. Took a while but we managed to finish it off between the three of us. Had my first cornbeef with biscuit flakes? Trust me when ur drunk, anything edible goes. Hell we even had an unsuccesfully attempt at creating home made baileys. Totally deserves the "Dont try at this home" statement.

Only got home close to 10am. Yet another all day sleep in..

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Ive preety much over extended my weekend booze sessions up till today, where im actually takin a break off any alcohol consumption. Unfortunately for me, the weekends are here again. Last night i gotta admit going past the limit, thanks to the guys, a 1/2 case session turned into a freeflow when we crashed sum chick's birthday party.

Whats the difference between this freeflow booze bday party then the others? Well its simple.. the chick's 43. Yeap u guessed it, the crowds older. Feels gud to be one of the youngest there for a change seeing as how i hardly hang out much with older folks anymore.

The food was great & we did a gud job cleaning out the top half of one giant trashcan of booze. Got sooo fucked i had to get azim to drive me back to jaz's crib where we all met up & ended the night with my old friend while megadeth plays in the background. I cant even remember how i got home after that. I was expecting one hell of a hangover today but luckily was being denied the pleasure.

Didn't do anything productive today but did get sum workout done to keep that belly in check. Had a real quick dinner then went off to the poolhouse. Had 2 frames of snooker tonight with sum old chinese guy who was damn gud. Made me realize no matter how hard u try at being gud with sumthin, there'll always be someone out there better then u.

After that marco & his friends came around and we had endless frames of last card & snooker. Im starting to get tired of playing, it sure as hell aint for the love of the game... if it weren't for the dough, i would've quit ages ago. For today i'll try fit only productive work into my fucked up schedule. Barely got room for slacking anymore.

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I feel so unhealthy & fat today cz what took me some few months to get in shape only took a few days to fuck up, with the aid of nightly booze abuse & irregular meals in between meals. Seriously gotta get back to swimming and proper meals.

Had such a fucking long weekend i dont even know where to start from. Saturday was preety tiring with gambling all day and drinking all night. Met up with azim after a long while and finished off a bottle of vodka & half case between jaz,saiful & zim's friend. The only thing i can recall was waking up the next day with yet another bad ass hangover & straight to the pool house.

I did try to get some school work done but i'm nowhere near pleased with my progress. Before i knew it its monday & i'm supposed to head down to belading cz the guys wanted to get some drinks. By 7 no one made it, so me and marco decided to go down anyways to clean out our livers. Had a quick few beers at the usual spot then went off to the otherside where i got entertained watchin marco & sum chick which i will not go into detail.

Had too much fun i guess cz otw back we missed the malaysian customs & marco had to stay over. This was the point where the fun descended. We had to climb over this huge ass gate to get back into kl. Then too pissed to realize how much shit we were in, we made it to the next bar & drank some more. Only when the lights came on did we notice how screwed we were. Had sum chicks trying to rip us off for a ride back to limbang which we had no money for whatsoever.

By this time i was getting the munchies bad.. and the best part was there wasn't any place open(perfect timing for a couple of starving drunks). This is when we managed to talk sum ppl into whooping up a meal for us although they did rip us off with the price. We were thankful eitherways. We walked around a bit with half case(which was turning to 1/4 case by this point) & two bottles liquor.

Luckily there was a lil joint with the lights still on and the noise from the tv. We hung out there practically for the rest of the night. Entertained ourselves with gambling and later the spain vs Tunisia match round 3am. The owner of the place was this big dude that looks like sum convict on parole. First impression nearly got us pissing in our pants(specially the part where marco tried asking him for a ciggarette) but then again after his first joke, we knew this convict had a sense of humour.

This dude was like hustling sum fag at gambling ketam. Marco was entertaining himself watchin the whole time figuring out how it works. I was glued to the tv entertaining the match. By the end of the first half i preety much sobered up & this headache started kicking in. I tot the worst had passed but shit was just begining.. i couldnt find my passport. Yeap shit indeed. I left with marco traced back our steps for a few mins lookin for it & the whole time i was in denial of losing it.

Obviously i was fucked now. The first thing that came to mind was climbing three screwed up gates across the border back to my car & wait till six(when the customs open) for marco to get across. Still in denial we got back to the joint & where i aksed the convict bout security on the other side. "Security? Yes." , that was all i needed to hear for a change in plan.

We went to the gate(where we climbed over) for the third time to check. This time i found it lying at the bottom at one end of the gate. The weird thing was me being in even more denial finding the damn passport then losing it in the first place. Relieved we ran back to catch the second half of the match. By now the gambling was done & all three of us watched the second half. After the match we left the joint & thanked the convict for letting us crash his pad.

Hung out for another hour & by six we were so pleased to get back to my car and drove down to bandar for breakfast & sum well deserved coffee. I swear i had the best shower ever by the time i got home. Didnt take long to fall asleep after.

Some sleep indeed.. got up way too late for class but made it to the second one. After class i hooked up with jody,harun,marco & fortune for a 3hr game of last card. Made enough to cover for whatever i spent the night before. Only problem is it's all in debts but hell i aint one to complain now. Im jz glad to have made it out of this extended weekend alive.

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For the past few days i've been getting up earlier then usual to pick up my lil cousin from school since his folks are outta town. Despite whatever time i go to bed, I'm up early from jalan muara driving all the way to jis to pick him up & send him home in bandar.

Now thats 3 preety distant destinations. I added bunut to the list today since i figured i'd go down to school & try jack some past year project documentations to help me out with my own project. I can't even remember the last time i was in the library, but the minute i stepped in i knew exactly where to find what i was looking for. Brilliant yes?

I decided to borrow the documentations instead of jacking it partly cause of karma but mainly cause it'd be hard to sneak two 500 pages thick project documentations out the door past the librarian. I am getting rusty in bad deeds i must admit. After the library i convinced jody who works the pool house to play a couple of frames of last card. He agreed. I think he regreted his decision after an hr + of losing streak and a couple of bucks short.

For the first time this whole week i made it home in time for dinner. Had one hell of a meal which reminded me instantly why i always have to be home for dinner. Overstuffed myself before finishing half a mug o coffee & taking off again to arena to play a few frames with forune. I havent seen this dude for a few weeks now & he's lost some 5kg? How? Just starve urself. Had my first 15ball experience today at the table with fortune's old friends. Took me a while but i figured it out eventually.

Went to tk after pool just in time for the netherlands match. Had a free meal and a couple of drinks cz some guy i just met who works with fortune won the previous argentina match. Believe me i'd rather be the one buying with the winnings. By 2am everyone left to catch some z's but not me. I've got shit loads of work to do & yet i find time to post just to entertain my adoring readers out there. nevertheless totally appreciate it :P

i didnt even say fuck in this post once? aww fuck nvm..anyways back to work.

I was so rajin today, actually went to dst before 9am to queue up for the registration bullshit. Nah..jz couldn't get to sleep. Anyways the queue was fuckin long, like 20mins before the place even opened there's already some 30+ folks stuck in line. I was way too tired to wait for more then a min but even more tired thinking bout coming here another day to get this shit done. Suprisingly after gettin my number, it took less then 10mins before it got called.

Straight to bed upon gettin home. Got up 5+ pm barely made it to class. I've got all this assignments & projects to finish off but somehow aint budging one bit getting started. It's that time of the month again.. the "fuck it i dont feel like doing shit!" time. Getting back on a nocturnal schedule here's really fucked me up & this constant craving for a quick beer's driving me nuts. I feel i must restock a.s.a.p. Besides the quick frames in the pool house nuthin else much happened. Well i'm practically still in the middle of my day technically....


hehehe amusing piece of crap aint it?

Talk about a long fuckin night of unproductiveness.... got up around evening then drove up near the pool house for branch. Harun came round a lil later then discussed bout the project for some 10mins & snooker for the next couple of hours.

After dinner i left for terrace to meet up with yan & the girls for drinks & soccer. After 5 or 6 glasses of vodka, jaz came around with puji. Since the girls had curfew we parted ways by 11+ & got ourselves half case beer to kill time. I dont know why but jaz wasn't in the mood to hang out sweet garden so instead we left for kiulap to meet up with izan.

I have not seen this girl in ages. Catching up was good..by the time the beer ran out jaz had to go so i got stuck with izan. Being very wasted we came up with a plan to crash any party. And surprisingly we did...traders inn. I dont even fucking know anyone there & we just blended in as if we came late. More beers & vodka later i was among friends. Alcohol..the international bond. We left before the sun came up & i couldnt stop crackin up bout the whole party crashing deal.

Things were'nt so great today cz i practically slept throughout the whole day & had the "hangover of the year". Took a while but i was throwing up in the shower. It's times like this when ur conscience comes to play with the whole "Why do u torture urself?". I never did figure out an answer for that, maybe i should then it would seem less annoying throwing up.

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-The Great Yokai War- Now i've seen some trippy jap movies but this one by far tops the list. IT begins with sum kid (Tadashi) having nightmares bout demons then a slinky demoness with a beehive comes dangerously close to some peeky cheeky action out the back of her mini skirt, followed by the birth of a goo-covered, flayed, talking cow fetus and a promise of the apocalypse. The fact that children in Japan can sleep at all is something of a miracle.

The kid gets elected to be a kirin rider aided by some trippy yokai characters to overthrow some twisted villian & his army of weird machines & that slinky demoness with a beehive. Overall i'd say it was preety damn entertaining.

Every quest has an ending and no childhood lasts forever; this movie extend beyond its climax and it's one of the saddest things I've ever seen. Amidst the imagination of mass destruction at the heart of this movie that sweeps up the film into a burning fusion of ridiculous ideas, be very still and quiet. That sound you hear is a child's heart breaking.

Oh yea this is the first time i've seen that Kirin Ichiban beer in any movie. And all this while i thought it was from china. Hmm besides this movie i'd say the only highlight of today was me making my first break over 20pts at snooker. I know ive been at it for the past few months & its sad how it's only now i managed this. Maybe i'll find something more productive to improve at today or maybe i'll blow the day away drinking. desicions..decisions...

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Why is it everytime i'm in a hurry shit always get in the way to slow me down? Unlike karma this is kinda predestine, take for example this evening..i leave home 30mins early for class to run some errands. I get stuck at my aunt's for some 20mins for the pizza to bake then as always another 20 to 30 mins in traffic. By the time i get outta traffic & into class im practically 20+mins late. Believe me i've tried getting out of the house earlier but as long as i'm in a hurry majority of the time i WILL be late.

Classes sucked as usual & got me so fuckin tired by the end of the night. Either that or lastnight's drinking left me with a preety bad hangover. Last min surprise as jaz calls it. Had my first stout cold..not bad but the after a few bottles, the four of us had another case of harimau. Got me preety fucked by the time i got home before passing out on the couch waking up a few hours later still hangin on to a can of spicy cajun pringles. I can't recall much last night but i remember cracking up most of the time cz these guys were making fun of some old timer chicks with a chilli bottle. Do the maths on the number of jokes u can come up with this one. :P

Had a few frames of snooker after class, that really cleared up my head. I believe it's some kinda mental sport. Weekends are here..my how time flies yet i barely felt the effects from the weekdays. Well.. weekends only mean one thing.. adi adi.

I gotta say i wasn't in any way interested in this evening's class. Kinda glad it ended when it did, supposed to have some group meeting for the project but harun didnt show up so i ended up chatting with marco & some dude i cant recall his name.

By like 9pm+ i went up to do some revision at the poolhouse. This indian dude that works there jody who barely plays, got me hooked up gambling with him & his 40+yr old friends. Talk about getting hustled. Here i am thinking "hey what the heck? this guy cant play so maybe i wont do so bad". Boy was i fucking wrong... after some 5hrs i'm out some 30 bucks. The old timers were a good match but then i was playing shit basically. Talk about some serious nervous breakdown.

I saw two movies recently.. "Over the hedge"- preety funny, i like how the animations are getting better. Unlike "the wild" this one's got better humour. The other movie "Friends with money" which i jz finished watchin is close to crap. I think it applies to americans only.. cz the way they managed to get the lamest looking characters into one set is just so dead & how it could otherwise be titled "a day in the life of american grownups". Oh yea dont expect too much of a sex scene from aniston in this one. Or better yet jz dont expect anything at all.

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I went to school today to check my results despite having call the shit hole and still didnt believe the results. I got 2 B's which im not too proud of but appreciative about. It's true how my old lady's always telling me "You should have a rough idea on the grades ur getting based on ur preformance during the test" Cause quite frankly usually when i step out of the room feelin like shit thats when i fucked up the paper. Spent bout some 4 hrs in the freaking snookerium all night to make a few fast bucks. After that dinner was the bomb cz u cant go wrong with lemon chicken & lamb chops.

After dinner i met up with jaz & his friends for a drink. Ended up hitting double digits on beer & loads of shell fish. Got bloated up like a junkie on a free flow buffet. From sweet garden all the way to seafood center the drinking kept going till some 4+ am. At seafood we hung out with a couple of old timers whom apparently were the owners of the joint. These people made no sense to me whatsoever maybe it's cause the alcohol's doing all the talking but it made me extremely aware of the fact that i don't wanna end up like any of them in future. It's just sad..

Well as for today, being end of the week and all, i think ill lay off the booze & give my liver some well deserved healing. And maybe go swimming too..

Now the thing with chinese ppl is that when they start with somethin they think is right believe me you'll have no room for a say. Kong had this really stone age theory bout women. I had to go through a whole hour on how the male being the more dominant species as in the chinese community should be looked up to as some kinda idol the more chicks they lay, be it married or not. On the other hand women just get labelled a slut if they reciprocate.

Like basically how it's okay for the male heterosexual to cheat on their spouse & how it'd be all wrong when the female does the same. Heres the statement from him i cannot seem to agree whichever way i look at it. "Married men are meant to cheat on their spouse cz thats life but once the wife does the same, she'd destroyed the marriage?"

Well it is a small country and within the chinese community everyone's familiar or connected with one another somehow. So what lil stunt u pull in whatever lil hidden cave.. will be out within days. Now im not trying to put my own friend under any feminist threat but he kept going on & on about the topic so seeing as how i cant recall anything to blog now, i figured this will take the cake.

My class got cancelled for the evening so i decided to do some revision in the pool house for an hour plus till my next class. All the swimming & basketball the previous day must have caught up to me cz i was aching all over during revision. Class was fucking dead as usual & by the time it ended i got sum pau for grub followed by a few frames of snooker with harun. I seriously gotta finish off school and get the fuck outta here. The pressure of repetitive life here is gradually killing me.

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